Frustration.

I'm dealing with a lot of frustration right now. I'm frustrated that my greenhouse is old and has many broken panes, letting in the cold. I am frustrated that I have utterly no one to speak to that shares my beliefs, hopes, gardening obsession. I am frustrated by the fact that i cant drive and have panic attacks when i try to learn, I am frustrated that no matter how hard i try to get a new job no one will hire me.
I have no space or energy. No help, no one to do anything fun with. No way to travel to anything fun and too anxious to go on my own.

I sowed seeds today:
purple sprouting brocoli,
regular brocoli,
lettuce,
basil,
thyme,
autumn flowering asters,
Brussels sprouts.
chard,
Japanese anemone.